Do you, by chance, delight when I allow you to be near me? The next moment I might cause the sorrow of separation. Do you talk among yourselves that Sai takes delight in your tears? The next moment I might make you laugh till your sides ache and continue to grant you joy again and again. Do you feel a sense of elevation because I praise you a little? That very moment I may prick the bubble by means of ridicule. Do you feel secure since I have given you the grace? Do not fear - next moment I might inflict pain and keep silent while you pray for relief. I do not allow you to go forward. I madden your mind and smother your ego. Find out how anyone can move away from the charming Sai, the embodiment of love and light. Find out the reason why He is indispensable inspite of this dual role. (S&M, p. 212)